Hello Friends and happy Wednesday! ♥
It's been a weird week for me. I've been thinking of my mom a lot. I think it's the holidays of course and we are almost at her two-year anniversary. That's so hard to believe. The other day I saw someone (who from behind) looked exactly like her. I think that triggered something in me as well.
Last night I had a dream that I was very sad. Everyone around me was ignoring me. I felt I had no family. No friends. And I was crying. I went into my house and saw my mom in the kitchen. She was wearing her apron and was at the stove cooking something. She saw that I had been crying and asked me if I was catching a cold. She offered to make me tea and something to eat. I instantly felt taken care of. The kitchen was warm and cozy and I could feel all the sadness inside me fade away. I was so happy because I knew deep down that she loved me. And even if nobody else did, she did.
And that was enough for me ♥
This is the time of year that we would go to craft fairs together and go Christmas shopping and out to lunch. We'd plan the holiday menus and decide who's making the pies (it was always me!). Now I do those things by myself. I AM the mom now. It's such a strange feeling that I know I'll never get over. But I must be strong and carry on. I will. I'm glad I have my memories.
And my dreams ♥
Danielle, I'm sorry you've been sad this week. After losing my dad (in 2012), I found that grief was like that...it would just show up. It does get easier - not because you miss her less, but because the pain subsides and doesn't hurt as much. The Lord has given me a few dreams of my dad and I treasure them. I hope your dream helped you to know that you are loved.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe it's already been two years. I'm so sorry that you are sad. The holidays do bring bittersweet memories, don't they? Even though my mother is still alive, she has dementia and in so many ways, it feels like she is already gone. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteI think that holidays truly bring much more grief and bittersweet memories to those that have lost loved ones.
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine how difficult that it. Sending big hugs and prayers of comfort my Friend. I think that was her visiting you in your dreams to tell you it will be okay. Sending lots of love and I hope you have a very blessed Thanksgiving ahead. xoxo
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